What Have I Done!!!

I don’t know why is my life full of so many tragedies. Well life is always simple until I interfere in. Actually I love to complicate my life. I am not one of those who give up at any stage but I am the one who is hell bent to make things worse for myself. And this is what I hate about myself (my not giving up attitude).

This post is about my new friend Ed.

Things were going simple until one day when I decided to have some online chat with strangers. There I met this guy, Ed. Firstly, I thought its some 30+ guy who’s got nothing to do with this materialistic world and who has taken birth on this planet just to serve poor people. Well this was his first impression. But this impression didn’t last for even a single day as later i found out that this a  26yo normal person with a caring heart and who is very much like me (loves English movies…listens to songs…eats pizza etc. etc.). We have lot of similarities…it’s a long list…so I can’t mention it here. Since I really thought this guy to be very genuine, polite, chivalrous and…, so I started chatting with him regularly. Later we exchanged our numbers and we started talking on phone for hours. I used to stay awake for whole night just to talk to him. I really loved talking to him as he is a very decent guy and never forgets his limits. He is so friendly and open that he became friends with my friends. He came very close to me in a very short span of time. But during all these days, we had forgotten that we were just friends and we were not supposed to give so much time to each other. I mean, when you know that you are not planning for any such relationship or any commitments and you know that the guy has so much potential that you could get attracted and ultimately you could hurt the sentiments then it’s better to avoid him. But then…who cares!!! I kept on talking to him in spite of knowing everything. And then I started feeling those vibes. The L vibes. I knew something was coming from his side, but I didn’t want it to come at all. Because our friendship was at stake and I didn’t want to lose a good friend. I must confess that I have secretly admired him and I too was attracted towards him. But then I knew the restrictions of our relationship too. And it was just an attraction…which I knew would fade away with time. Well, I kept on complicating his and my life as I kept on talking to him like always…thinking that everything would be fine.

But I know things are not going to be fine again. But he really is a nice friend. I just wish us to be friends forever. But lets see what happens next...